I would have no intention of any such thing, I assure you! I understand that membership of a guild involves responsibilities towards the guild as a whole and that these take precedence over whatever private arrangements there may be. I fully understand your concern, given the DD background. I hope that this reply will clarify matters a little. At any rate, I will try.
May I, in turn, be perfectly clear. I am not seeking to join House of the Rose in order to gratify some obsession which I have with ERP. Very far from it! I regard ERP as an interesting part of roleplay but that is all. It is by no stretch of the imagination anything more than that. Obviously, if the whole idea were unattractive to me, I wouldn't be interested in playing a courtesan - that's common sense, after all. But I would regard it in the main as a means to various ends (making money, 'pillow talk' spying, etc, etc) in the game context and not as an end in itself.
One of the issues which I had with Dark Desires in the early days was the tendency of a substantial number of members to indulge in individual or group ERP when there were clients to attend to, plots to be hatched or spying to be done. It was often difficult actually to get people to attend to business (ie paying clients). As an officer at the time, I would quite frequently get a request from a client for female companionship and find it almost impossible to get anybody, which meant that I had to provide the service myself far more frequently than I would have otherwise wished, when I had other things to do, in order to try to preserve the Guild's reputation (obviously, it isn't good at all to have customers who don't get the service which they wish). Quite frankly, I got thoroughly fed up with it after a while.
It also seriously concerned me that there were certain individuals who appeared to go out of their way to 'capture' new recruits (especially if they were submissives). This caused a considerable degree of trouble and was something which I utterly deplored.
Sitting around in The Serpent for ages in a ridiculously self-absorbed group oblivious of all that was going on around me was not what I regarded as a productive exercise at all.
The above were some of the reasons which caused me to leave DD.
The fact that it sounds very much as though this is NOT the way in which House of the Rose carries on is a great relief to me because I was worried about it (knowing nothing about how your guild operated before speaking to you). I am anxious to fit in - all I am looking for is the opportunity to roleplay with some like-minded people in a believable context and nothing else. Please forgive me for being blunt in my turn, but my emotional and physical needs are very adequately catered for by my husband and I DON'T require any artificial substitutes!
I have tried to be as open and honest as possible here and hope I have caused no offence. Of course, I'll be happy to provide any other information required.
Subject: Application from Lijuan 
Sat May 15, 2010 5:07 pm
). But as soon as I escape, I will let one of you know.
